Saturday 5 June 2010

Lost MoJo

On Tuesday I had a nasty vertigo attack which has left me sapped of energy - 3 whole days stretched out in front of me where I could craft away and zilch - not a flicker of creativity!
My lovely Pal Emma came on Thursday to do a Stampin up party at my craft group - this was the project a sweet little easel box card. I finished mine off last night as I could not think straight at all at the session.

The papers, cards, stamps and inks are all stampin up with the new colours which I really like.


Am hoping my Mojo returns for tomorrow as I have a card order to complete for 3 cards by Monday and I am back at work then too! This Menieres thing is not funny. The attacks are one thing but on Monday when we went to Barnard Castle I also had a panic as with the main street being cut off by the parade I didnt know where I was - I was bit snappy and only realised why when I overheard my Mum explaining to my daughter it was because of the menieres and deafness that was making me panic as well as not knowing where I was. Ive thought a lot about that this week and she is right.
We rely on our senses so much - I am fine when I know everything is where it should be but that confusion of not knowing where I was in relation to where I wanted to go really upset my normally go with the flow personality. All this is not what I expected from the disease - the symptoms of vertigo and the not being able to drive, the deafness and associated problems I expected but the dent to my confidence and how I behave is just as frightening- I think thats why my mojo has gone walkabout. I use crafting not just for the pleasure of creating but to crowd out negativity - I lose myself in it so there is no room for worry however in order to adjust to the whole thing I think my mind does smother the Mojo ocasionally to force me to adjust and not run away from reality. Does that make sense?
So I am hoping now I have adjusted to this way of thinking my Mojo will return too so I can pick myself up, dust myself down and start all over again.
Hope your week has been more productive!
Janet

7 comments:

  1. oh hun look after yourself, we look forward to seeing your creations once your mojo returns

    Kate xx (((((Hugs)))))

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  2. I don't think its only the disease that made you snappy - not knowing where you are is scary for anyone!! I know i get out of sorts when i don't know where i am too.

    Did the jigsaw piece arrive yet? it should have by now.

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  3. You have so much to cope with and adjust to its no surprise if sometimes you get out of sorts and lose your mojo from time to time. Cannot imagine how horrid it is for you, your mojo will return suspect your crafting is much more than just a shield. Think of you hun (((Hugs))) xx Zoe

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  4. Oh dear, am so sorry you are going through this agony. But I love your card. Lets hope it all sorts itself out.
    Annette x

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  5. Janet - I really feel for you. I am so sorry you're going through this.
    Your mojo will return when it's ready. I love the card you made.
    Sending hugs and sparkles,
    Sue xx

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  6. faberoonie Janet, lovely to see it finished. Look forward to seeing you soon. Emma xx

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  7. Oh Lord Janet, I had no idea about your condition - it sounds absolutely awful and I'm sending you a huge {{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}} because I wish I could give you a proper one :o( Take it easy my friend and don't put yourself under any unnecessary stress.

    Your easel box, btw, is just stunning - absolutely stunning, I'd love a tut!! :o) XXX

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